Prelude: At odds with myself.

Writing of this blog has become increasingly difficult, not for the lack of commitment or confidence, but for the attempts to maintain a delicate balance between my real opinion and real-life relationships with people about whom I write. I wouldn't want to offend anyone and people who are my real life characters have feelings and those get communicated to me all too loud to just disregard them. If was the value of this blog that i would write about my life and people who surround me and I would not try to be politically correct. maintaining that credo resulted in lots of topics not being touched. My current bf Tommy beyond the initial posts when everything was a bliss, my ex boyfriend Davide who deserved at least three chapters of getting to know him and falling in love at the same time with him and venice, living with him and observing the magical vail of this city clear from my eyes and making me realize the reality and a true character of a person I was with, then the breakup and post breakup chapter, all that being very difficult to write when you try to be honest and truth especially about us when voiced by other people hurts and one has to be a really evolved being to take in the criticism and not hold a grudge against their critic. Well I am the first one to criticize myself but as I dont want to set the tone of this book to self deprecating I will resort to criticizing others for the most part, I am not all that intreating and we do have to keep it fresh... Lets then make this an enigmatic Prelude to a more serious Introduction of several Acts to follow. But have I answered the core question here? - will it or will it not be politically correct regardless of the consequences. Or should i just reinvent everyone's names and turn reality blog to a based on reality fiction book. Somehow the latter seems to less entertaining but the jury is still out on that.

Being an ex is never easy.

Today, I meant to post something completely different, but I feel obliged to answer to one of the online comments that were made. The comment was to the last posting and it was written by Tommy's former boyfriend, clearly upset that Tommy is moving on with his life. I do not know the guy, I never met him, I never inquired about him or he never held any of my interest, so its hard for me to offer any more information beyond what you can read yourself in his comment. In fact I dont even know his name. Let me just pre-empty what I'm going to say, and let all of you that find my blog interesting that this posting will be plain boring. In other words stop reading here unless some mediocre drama may entertain you. So Dear Tommy's ex bf, whoever you are, Thank you for your comment, I appreciate all the comments. I'm afraid though it is really bad for you, being Tommy's ex boyfriend, to try to use his former affection for you as a method to stay at his house or sleep with him every night like you wrote. Why do you do that? That relationship is over and you are only making yourself unhappy by trying to stay in Tommy's company, showing him you're jealous and angry by writing hurt and confused replies to my blog. Then you question him about me and are annoying to him making everything even worse. If I were you I would consider stop trying to go back to something that will never be the same and look for a new guy that you can build a happy life with. I dont know you, I just feel sorry that you are clearly hurting yourself and make life difficult for you and for Tommy. Remember that ex-boyfriend should be supportive of his ex's attempts on building a new life - thats a normal human courtesy. I know I am going to sound like a shrink on bad TV which is just so boring, but I feel I have to remind you what everyone knows - you need a break from your ex to be happy again. Otherwise, in time,  you will loose his friendship and any remaining affection he may hold for you. Its ABC of a break up and every person knows this - you need distance, you need time away, you need limited contact. And last but not least, if you cannot handle the truth, dont read my blog. But again thank you for writing, it is my personal blog but I want that people directly or indirectly connected with the events I describe, feel they can have their voice heard.